Saturday, August 30, 2014

Not Enough (Make You Smile)

I'd do anything for you;
I'd break my back if you asked me to,
But sometimes life is tough,
And I look to your eyes,
But it's "Not enough,"
They seem to say to my surprise.
So I keep trying to please you,
But all the while,
I wonder if anything I do
Will ever make you smile.

I've always looked up to you,
But you never notice what I do.
It's in vain to try to please you,
But try is what I do.
Your eyes are always on me,
Telling me that I'm no good;
That everything won't be enough,
Even though it should.
Still I always try to make it worth your while,
Though I think I may never make you smile.

It's Okay To Go

I'm writing for you in the dark
The things you say you must never
Forget.
But I need more to work with than just empty words;
How can I trust you when you've given me so much
Regret?
And you tell me it's because you need me so;
You need me so, so, so,
I just have to stay till life lets me know
When it's okay to go, to go, to go.

I'm sitting on a floor so hard
I can't seem to think clearly now;
It hurts.
You're gone, it's dark, and I don't understand at all;
If you're so wonderful, why'd you have to say so?
It hurts.
And you tell me it's because you need me so;
You need me so, so, so,
I just have to stay till life lets me know
When it's okay to go, to go, to go.

I throw things out, and cut my hair.
People may stop and stare at me;
Oh well.
I can't seem to get rid of the memory yet,
But I've tried all that I can think to do, and I'm
Not well.
And you tell me it's because you need me so;
You need me so, so, so,
I just have to stay till life lets me know
When it's okay to go, to go, to go.

Here (I Need You)

If you know somebody,
Please bring them here.
I need a savior
Who can end my fear.
I still need you here
When I'm at my best;
You always called me dear...
This is not a test.
I still need you here
When I'm at my best;
If it wasn't this bad,
I'd give it a rest.
And here is where I am,
And here I am alone,
And here I am afraid,
And here I need a hand;
Here I need your help.
And here I need you, friend.
I need you here;
I need you here;
I need you here.

Pensive

He stares at me with a thoughtful eye,
Till I couldn't ignore him anymore. 
I turned to him, and he looked at the sky,
But I asked what he was staring for.
He tried to deny it;
He tried to hide it,
But I pressed on,
And if if weren't for that, you wouldn't have this song.
REFRAIN
I can't help but notice,
You look so sad;
You look like you've been treated bad.
All the storm clouds are in your eyes,
Waiting for solitude, for a chance to cry.
Oh, I promise you can tell me;
Who hurt you?
You're so pensive, pensive, pensive;
Why are you so pensive, pensive;
Such a pensive girl?

I laughed at him, and said he was wrong,
But the storm clouds returned when he had gone.
When I turned around I found a bare wall,
Where his photo once hung in the hall.
I tried to deny it;
I tried to hide it,
But I could find it,
So I pressed on,
And if it weren't for that, you wouldn't have this song.
REFRAIN

During my search for my one true love,
I found a tear-stained child in the corners.
I asked the child why she was crying so;
She said, "I'm not; I'm a great warrior."
She tried to deny it;
She tried to hide it,
But I pressed on,
And if it weren't for that, you wouldn't have this song.
REFRAIN

When I didn't give up, she soon changed,
And from where she had sat, a beast arose.
I didn't understand, and tried to run,
But the beast came down and seized hold of me,
And it turned out to be
My own denial,
And my own fear,
And if it weren't for that, this song wouldn't be here.
REFRAIN

I need help;
I don't want help.
Pensive, pensive, pensive,
Pensive, Pensive,
Pensive girl...
I need help;
I don't want help.
Pensive, pensive, pensive...
I'm pensive, pensive,
A pensive girl.
I need help;
I don't want help.
Pensive, pensive, pensive,
Pensive, pensive, pensive,
Pensive, pensive, pensive...

Baby Girl Or Baby Boy

( Seems like an appropriate-ish time to post this, since I just found out yesterday my god-daughter is a BIG SISTER now!!! :) )

Mmm, love you forever,
BAby girl, or baby boy.
Mmm, love you forever,
Baby yet to be born.
Ooh, and I don't know who you are yet,
But when I do, I'll never forget.
Ooh, and I don't know who you are yet,
But when I do, I'll love you forever.
Mmm, love you forever,
Love you forever, baby.
Mmm, love you forever,
Baby girl, or baby boy.
Mmm, love you forever,
My pride and joy.
Ooh, and I don't know who you are yet,
But when I do, I'll never regret.
Ooh, and I don't know who you are yet,
But whoever you'll be, you're the one I'll hold.
Mmm, love you forever,
Love you forever, baby;
Love you forever,
My baby girl or boy.
Mmm, love you forever,
Love you forever,
Unborn baby.
Mmm, love you forever;
Love you forever, baby.
Love you forever,
Baby girl, or baby boy.

Movie Theater Line

( I liked this song... I don't like it as much anymore. Whatever. Just note that, like most of my songs, this is completely fictional, despite the fact that I do know someone with the name Jesse. Or Jessie. Or something. This song has nothing to do with them; unfortunately, when I decide I want to use a name, I use it, whether I know someone with that name already or not. What can I say? I like names. :P )

I take back
What I took back
When I said "Never mind;
I thought you were someone else.
I'm sorry I cut in line.
I'll see you on Sunday;
Until then, goodbye."
Jesse, you knew what I was saying,
You knew what I was saying,
So I wish that you would say,
"The pleasure is mine;
I'd stand by you any time."
Next time I try to say
Goodbye.

Apology To An Old Friend

You can say you were around,
But we never spoke,
Unless, of course, you count
Passing occasional notes.
I forgot who you were;
I forgot who I was;
I forgot whatever it was
That made me think I was in love.
I was broken inside out,
And maybe you were, too;
I didn't want to hurt you,
But I hurt you no matter what I do.
I'm sorry for what I did;
I know it wasn't right.
I hope someday you find a girl
Who knows how to treat you kindly.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Just Don't Let Me Think About It

We're unofficially more than just friends;
When we cross the street, you hold my hand,
And somehow I feel safe within it;
Just don't let me think about it.
I tell you things my mom doesn't know;
I talk to you, and just lose control.
I trust you too much not to talk about it;
Just don't let me think about it.
You're the only guy I'm comfortable with;
I didn't know love felt like this.
I feel safe when I look in your eyes,
And I can't help but smile.
I'm so scared to be scared away
From the first person who's made me feel this way;
I don't want to talk myself out of this;
So don't let me think about it.

I'm Only Here For You

You say it feels like the end of the world;
You say that you're falling apart.
You say that you're only a girl;
A girl with a new broken heart.
That may very well be true,
But I can't fix it.
There's not much I can do,
But you can tell me all about it.
REFRAIN
I'm only here for you;
I'm here for you.
You know I'm
Only here for you;
I'm here for you.
You know I'm
Only here for you;
That's all I can do,
But it keeps me alive,
And if it makes you smile,
I'm here for you.

You can't speak because you can't stop crying,
But you try to apologize.
Dry your eyes and don't feel guilty;
It's not your fault he said goodbye.
If you want to talk, I'm here;
There's not much I can do,
But you can tell me all about it.
REFRAIN

Wonderful You

You know you're not as wonderful
 As they say you are,
And you wish that they'd quit it.
Can't they see that it's your life,
And they don't have to live it?
All they see's the smiles
 And the sunshine;
They don't notice the scars
 And bruises like a punchline.
They don't know you're hurting;
They can't tell you're breaking
From the inside out.
They all wish they could be you,
'Cuz you're so wonderful;
They can't even imagine
What they'd do
Without Wonderful You.

You know you're not as wonderful
As they say you are;
You believe they're jsut teasing.
Can't they see your brain is broke,
And that your heart is bleeding?
All they see's your kind-hearted actions;
They don't notice all the guilt
And dissatisfaction.
They don't know you're lying;
They can't tell you're dying
From the inside out.
They all want to be like you,
'Cuz you're so wonderful;
They should start considering
What they'd do
Without Wonderful You.

Friday, August 8, 2014

Hey Maksem!

(This song is based off of the characters from the story +Alena Grobien  and I are writing, "Goose Feathers." It's ridiculous and awesome. Enjoy- or skip it, because you might get really bored, confused, or annoyed!!!)

(Hansel): Hey Maksem! Maksem!
Hey Maksem! Maksem, hey!
Hey! Hey! Hey!
Hey Maksem! Hey Maksem! Hey!
Hey! Hey! Hey Maksem!
Hey Maksem! Hey Maksem!
Hey! Hey Maksem! Maksem!
Hey! Hey Maksem! Hey! Hey!
Hey Maksem! Hey Maksem!
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey Maksem!
Maksem! Maksem! Maksem!
Hey Maksem! Maksem!
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey Maksem!
Hey! Hey Maksem! Maksem!
(Maksem:)Never interrupt me when I'm
Writing a book, Hansel!
I'm writing a book, Hansel!
I'm writing a book, Hansel!
Never interrupt me when I'm
Writing a book, Hansel!
I'm writing a book, Hansel!
I'm writing a book!
Never interrupt me when-
(Sam): Oh, shut up, already!
(instrumental)
(girly laughter)
(Sam:) Hey! Faye! Faye! Hey! Faye!       (Maksem:) Oh, great.
Hey, Faye! Faye! Faye! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Hey, Faye!
Hey, Faye! Faye! Hey, Faye! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Faye! Hey, Faye! Faye!
Hey! Hey, Faye! Faye! Hey Faye!   (Hansel, Matthias, and Lydia pick up on "Hey Maksem!")
Hey! Hey, Faye! Faye! Faye! Faye!  (Tabitha:) Hey, Matthias! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Hey, Faye! Faye! Hey! Hey!   Matthias! Matthias!
Hey, Faye! Faye! Hey Faye! Hey!    Hey, Matthias! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Hey! Faye! Hey, Faye! Hey!   Hey, Matthias! Hey! Hey!
Faye! Faye! Faye! Hey, Faye! Hey!   Matthias! Matthias!
Hey, Faye! Faye! Hey, Faye!   Hey, Matthias! Hey!
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey, Faye! Hey!   Hey Matthias! Hey! Hey!
Hey, Faye! Hey, Faye! Hey, Faye!   Matthias! Matthias!
(Maksem:) I'm writing a book, y'all!
I'm writing a book!
You gots to shut up
When I'm-
(Gretchen:) Hey, Maksem.
(Maksem:) Gretchen? Hey Gretchen!
(instrumental)








Sunday, August 3, 2014

One Day (Circumstances)

One day,
Look in the mirror,
On a bright, sunny morning,
In your own safe home,
With a smiley sticker
Stuck to the surface.

Then,
On a dark night,
Driving through a shady part of town,
When there is a spider
Crawling across your car window,
Look at your reflection in that.
(Please- not when you're the driver.)

Compare these two.
Funny how different
You can be
In a change of light;
In a change of
Circumstances.

Soul Creeper

( I do not own this picture, and honestly, it's kinda creepy... I really just posted it here to make it clear what this song was really about. So, I don't care who you are or if you own this picture; if you want me to remove it, let me know, and I will do so!!! Thanks. :) )

Creeping in the dark,
His pain is his lark;
You think you've been enlightened
As your noose is being tightened.
This is more than a broken heart;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper,
And he won't let you go.

You thought you'd move on,
'Cause you found someone new,
But you can't make a lie
Out of something that's true.
This is more than a broken heart;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper,
And he won't let you go.

The tears in your eyes
Can't put out the flames;
You're curled up by a bottle of pills,
Clutching a picture frame.
This is more than a broken heart;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper,
And he won't let you go.

There's nowhere to go
Where the world isn't crazy,
So some of us hide in dark corners
'Til someone saves us... maybe.
This is more than a broken heart;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper,
And he won't let you go.
There's a Soul Creeper;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper;
It's a broken, broken soul.
There's a Soul Creeper;
It's a broken, broken soul.



Saturday, August 2, 2014

Everything But Tears In Your Eyes

You've got everything but tears in your eyes;
So this is when we finally say goodbye?
We made it this far,
And I was starting to think we just might have a chance.
But I'm starting to see
The good things never last.
I wanted to believe
That you would never leave,
But all those dreams are fading fast
As you pick up your bag and say it isn't me,
I can only nod,* because it's clear to see,
You've got everything but tears in your eyes.



*?

More Than Just Love

REFRAIN
There's more than just love that can break your heart;
I know, I know, I know because I know you.
There's more than just love that can break your heart;
I know, I know, I know that hate can do it, too...
Any number of things can do it, too...
I know that hate can do it, too.

You walked into my life,
And you walked out again.
You've got my head spinnin',
'Cause I can't start over;
I can't start all over again.
I know, I know, I know I can't start over again.
REFRAIN

It only took a sec
To know you were in pain,
So why'd you have to go
And hurt someone again?
You went and hurt me once again.
I know, I know, I know I hurt all over again.
REFRAIN

There's more than just love that can break your hear;
I know, I know, I know because I know you.
There's more than just love that can break your heart;
I know, I know, I know that hate can do it, too...
Any number of things can do it, too...
I know that hate can do it, too.

It's not that I love you;
I just can't not miss you.
Not that I understand;
I miss how you hate me,
And I miss how you confuse me...
I know, I know, I know that I just can't miss you, too.
REFRAIN

Don't ask me to explain;
You never did for me.
I don't mean to confuse,
But I feel confused, too;
Don't lie and say you miss me, too;
I know, I know, I know that I just confuse you.
REFRAIN

There's more that just love that can break your heart;
I know, I know, I know because I know you.
There's more than just love that can break your heart;
I know, I know, I know that hate can do it, too...
Any number of things can do it, too...
I know tat hate can do it, too.
Oh man, I don't really hate you;
I can't really hate you anymore.
Oh man, how much I miss you;
I can't lie to myself like I lie to you...
Oh man, hate can do it, too.
Hate can do it, too.

Darkness of the Blind

(*Sniff* If you don't like sad songs, just skip this one. I have no idea what made me write it. Also, it's another old one, so it's not as well written as some of my other songs, IMHO.)

REFRAIN:
Funny thing is, I've got no memory of that,
And you keep bringing it back;
Images keep flashing in my mind,
Of things that you claim I left behind.
And I wish that it was true,
'Cause I think I'm in love with you,
But when I search all that I find
Is the darkness of the blind.

I woke up in a hospital bed,
And on my lap, there lay your head.
In your eyes I spotted tears;
Enough to last a thousand years.
My finger wore a golden band,
And I noticed another on your hand.
REFRAIN

They talk to me like a little kid;
Their eyes speak of things their words keep hid.
They tell me that I was in the car,
When a drunkard drove a little too far.
They give me drugs to kill the pain,
But I still feel the pain of this fog in my brain.
REFRAIN

You show me pictures of our stranger child;
Your eyes are those of a man gone wild.
I say I'm sorry I can't help you,
But I don't remember if what you say is true.*
You look so sad as you walk away...
All because of someone who shouldn't have driven that day.
REFRAIN


* But I can't remember what you want me to?

Just Friends Again

( This is an old song... I've hesitated to post it, because I thought it was kind of... I dunno... weird. :P Now I'm just like, "whatever." So, here it is. Worth a few laughs, or a few tears, if nothing else. Like I said. Whatever.)

Boy: Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
Soft, good, wonderful, kind;
Love, not love, love, not love...
Anyone could be beautiful;
Anyone could be good,
So even though you are,
It's so hard to be sure.
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
We're just friends,
Again, and again, and again.

Girl: Precious, precious, precious,
Sweet, silly, happy, smart;
Love, not love, love, not love...
Just what makes one precious?
Just how are you sweet?
One minute I feel so certain,
And the next I just can't be sure.
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
We're just friends,
Again, and again, and again.

Both: Difficult, difficult, difficult,
Hard, painful, scary, sad;
Love, not love, love, not love...
But why is it so difficult to leave?
And why is it so hard to say goodbye?
There are lots of good scary things,
But* it's still hard to be sure.
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
We're just friends,
Again, and again, and again.

Freedom, freedom, freedom,
Single, independent, alone, free;
Love, not love, love, not love...
They call this freedom,
But it doesn't feel free;
I miss the comforting feeling
Of you sitting next to me.
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
We're just friends,
Again, and again, and again.
I wish we weren't
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
Why are we just friends,
Again, and again, and again?
We shouldn't be
Just friends again,
Just friends again;
It hurts being just friends
Again, and again, and again.


*So?

I Know You

I know you,
I know you;
I know that you know me.
I know you;
I know you;
I know you're just too sweet.
Yes, I saw you yesterday
On the street.
Yes, I hear you call my name
And repeat.
But I didn't know what to say,
And you're so sweet,
I had to run away.
No, I didn't know what to say
Should we meet,
Except I know you.

Friday, August 1, 2014

I'm Not Afraid

( I do not own this picture. If it belongs to you and you would like me to remove it, please let me know, and I will. Thanks! )

I'm not afraid of falling,
Cause I'm not afraid to break.
I'm not afraid of dying,
Cause I've made enough mistakes.
I'm not afraid;
I'm not afraid.
I just want you to know
I love you
Before I go.
I'm not afraid of crashing,
Cause I'm not afraid to burn.
I'm not afraid of loving,
Cause I'm not afraid to learn.
I'm not afraid.
I just want you to know
That I love you
Before I go.
Too many times I've been
Afraid to cry.
Too often I haven't thought
To ask myself why.
It's time to let it go,
And let them think what they will.
I would jump off of here
Just to see the world stand still.
Because I'm not afraid;
I am not afraid.
I'm not afraid of looking,
Cause I'm not afraid to lose.
And I'm not afraid of smiling,
Cause I'm not afraid of you.
All this time I've been hiding,
I've been keeping it in,
Never once believing,
Not confiding in a friend.
But now I'm not afraid,
And before I go away,
I want you to see,
You've always meant
The world to me.