Friday, October 6, 2017

The Wolf And Me

Are you happy with yourself?
You don't seem happy with anyone else.
Maybe you're just tired of us all.
I can't say I mind;
I've felt the same way for a long time.
There's still some things
I just can't say out loud.
But are you lonely now?
I still get that way somehow.
Maybe that's why the wolf
Howls at the moon,
And even now, I can't help
But talk to you.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Some Feelings


I posted this once, then decided I didn't like it and reverted it to a draft for some reason. Here is is again, unchanged from before. :P

I don't sleep on my thoughts;
They sleep on me.
They weigh me down
Like a blanket of bricks.
I'll be alright;
Just stay by me.
I always forget
You're on my side.
I don't mean to make you
Feel low;
I keep going down,
Cuz I don't know where else to go.
If you can fly,
Show me how;
I guess I must have lost
My wings somehow.
If you forget how to love,
Hurry up and remember;
I can't wait until
Next September
For you to find your way
Back to me.
Forget this whole thing;
Let's just call it a night.
Some feelings can't be worded right.

I Am Wicked

I am wicked.
I can see no tomorrow;
Not for me.
The world may not end tonight
But I already have.
I am wicked.
I'm not a good friend.
Don't tell me I am.
If I were good,
I would be gone by now.
The dirty deed
Would already be done.
I hang around
And hang around
And hang around
And never just...
Don't misunderstand me.
I don't want to go.
I don't want to go.
But I can't stay any longer.
I'm out of options.
It's not the same.
I am wicked.
I am selfish
And lazy
And foolish.
No one needs me
And I am wicked.
You can tell me
And tell me
And tell me,
But I don't believe you love me.
I don't believe He loves me.
I don't believe it gets any better.
Just laugh with me one last time.
Hug me
Even though I'll tell you not to.
Sing to me.
I am wicked.
But please
Don't let me die alone.

I Want To See Where This Goes

I've been thinking 'bout where this could go
If you'd just ask one simple question.
What's the answer?
Well, I don't know,
But it feels like we're headed
In some sort of direction.
Pull me up,
Or put me down,
Take me there,
Or turn me around;
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
Spin me left,
Point me right,
Bring me back,
Let's drive all night;
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
I've been thinking 'bout where this could go
If I could just get the words out.
Is it too soon?
Are you ready?
I'm not sure,
But maybe we're headed
That direction.
Pull me up,
Or put me down,
Take me there,
Or turn me around;
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
Spin me left,
Point me right,
Bring me back,
Let's drive all night;
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
Do you see what I see?
Are you coming with me?
I'm not sure where we're headed,
But I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
I'm thinking about one simple question.
What's the answer?
I don't quite know,
But I think we're headed some direction.
Pull me up;
I know you won't put me down.
Take my hand
And spin me around.
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
Spin me left,
Dip me right,
Bring me back,
Let's laugh all night;
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.
I want to see where this goes.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Even Before The Storm Breaks

You feel like
The eye of the storm;
Chaos all around me,
But you keep me warm.
I talk to you;
You already know.
I give you my heart;
You don't let it go.
And though the wind and rain
Knock me to the ground
I know that you will never
Let me drown.
So I feel safe,
Even before the storm breaks.
You feel like
The eye of the storm;
If I stay with you
I won't be harmed.
I can stand still,
While people run away.
I listen to you;
You know just what to say.
Though the wind and rain may
Knock me to the ground
If you hold my hand, I know
I won't drown.
So I'm not afraid,
Even before the storm breaks.
As long as I'm with you,
I feel safe
Even before the storm breaks.

Blank Check

My love for you is a blank check, baby;
Fill in what you need.
You got it;
With draw it;
No limit
With me.
I know nobody's perfect,
But your love is everything to me.
I mean it;
Believe it;
I need it;
Need you.
I know that it sounds silly,
But I mean every word.
When you say that you love me
It's the most beautiful thing
That I've ever heard.
My love for you is a blank check, baby;
Just tell me what you need.
You get it;
Forget it;
No fine line
With me.
I know nobody's perfect,
But your love is everything to me.
I mean it;
Believe it;
I need it;
Need you.

I Feel Empty

I feel empty;
I don't know if it's you,
Or if it's me.
I feel empty,
Like there's somewhere else,
But there's nowhere else
For me to be.
Where should I be?
If I search a little harder
Could I find it?
If I wished a little harder
Could I find it?
I feel empty;
I don't know if it's me,
Or it's this place.
I feel empty;
I keep looking for someone,
Like someone could fill this space.
Who could it be?
If I looked a little harder
Could I see it?
If I tried a little harder
Could I be it?
Who should I be?
I feel empty.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Does This Cover Everything?

I'm sorry I can't meet your eye
I'm sorry I don't know what to say
I'm sorry I can't sit beside you
I'm sorry that I turn away

I'm sorry that I'm so awkward
I'm sorry I say sorry so much
I'm sorry I cancel so often
I'm sorry that I'm not enough

I'm sorry that I'm so selfish
I'm sorry I can't see what you see
I'm sorry I need you so often
I'm sorry I don't know who to be

I'm sorry that I'm so obnoxious
I'm sorry I so easily cry
I'm sorry I don't smile more often
I'm sorry that I don't know why

I'm sorry that I never call you
I'm sorry you think I don't try
I'm sorry that I'm so lazy
I'm sorry that I want to die.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Yesterday Was Good

Yesterday was good.
Yesterday was good.
I have to keep telling myself,
Lest I forget,
And fall too deeply into today.
How can they highest of days
Transition into the lowest
So easily?
Today was not --
Today was --
Yesterday was good.
I don't know what else to say.
Does pain matter?
Does happiness matter?
Does anything matter?
Does it matter if --
Yesterday was good.
Take another breath.
Say it again.
Yesterday was good.
Take another breath.
Say it again.
Yesterday was good.
I'm tired.
I'm broken.
It's too late to repair this day.
But yesterday was --
Yesterday was good.
That must mean
There are still good days.

Dirty Hands

No matter what I do I feel selfish;
No matter how I try I fall short.
I can't tell anyone about this;
To hear it said would only
Break their hearts.
I pray that God forgive me,
But I'm not sure He can;
Have any of His children
Ever had such dirty hands?
However far I go, I'm still lost;
Whoever I try to help, I only hurt.
Maybe it's time I followed through;
I'd only be getting what I deserve.
Whatever I try to fix, I only break;
Whatever I try to say, comes out wrong.
I know people who say that they love me,
But I don't think they'll love me til I'm gone.
I pray that God forgive me,
But I'm not sure He can;
Have any of His children
Ever had such dirty hands?
I'm so sure that He's angry,
And I know that I can't hide,
But maybe He'd forgive me
If I finally just died.
They say that God forgives me,
But I'm not sure I can.
They say He's made me clean,
But I don't feel like I am.
I thought I was on solid ground,
But I settled in the sand.
I pray that God forgive me,
But I'm not sure that He can.
I pray that God forgive me,
But I have such dirty hands.