Saturday, May 23, 2015

Can You Believe? Second Draft/Long Version

+Alena Grobien  +Alena Grobien   I completed your challenge, but I don't think you'll like the results.

Can you believe
I could talk to you
And not tell you how I feel?
Smile and laugh
At all your jokes
And try to tell myself it's not read?
Can you believe
That I could love you
And not want to be loved back?
Try my best
Not to look at you;
Let my heart break just like that?
It doesn't make sense
To most people,
But maybe I'm
Not right in the head.
I think you'd be better off
Without me;
Sometimes I think
I'd be better of dead.
Can you believe
I could be so stupid,
And leave it all unsaid?
Can you believe
I'd ignore my best friend
And avoid her at all cost?
She's always been
Right there for me
But I've given myself up for lost.
Can you believe
I wouldn't call her back,
Or answer her e-mails,
And complain about her,
And cry to myself,
And tell myself I've failed?
It doesn't make sense
To most people,
But maybe I'm
Not right in the head.
I know she's better off
Without me,
And maybe I
Don't need any friends.
Can you believe
I could be such a jerk,
And just walk away like that?
Can you believe
I would hide from my family,
And not care what they think?
That I'd go for a walk
And not come back,
Leaving dishes in the sink?
Can you believe
I'd lock my bedroom door,
And not say what's wrong,
And stare a a blank
Sheet of notebook paper,
Because I've forgotten how to put it in song?
It doesn't make sense
To most people,
But maybe I'm
Not right in the head.
I bet they'd be
Better off without me;
So say the voices
In my head.
Can you believe
I could be so lost
I cut even my family off?
The fact is that
I don't hate them;
I'm trying to avoid a fight.
I love them, but I'm a bad person,
And I'm trying to make things right.
Can you believe
I'd give up on myself,
Like it's the only option left?
That I feel
Numb and dead on the inside,
And just want to stay in bed?
Can you believe
That I'm so alone
I don't even have myself?
You can't just
"Choose to be happy"
Or I'd have figured that out myself.
It doesn't make sense
To most people,
But maybe I'm
Not right in the head.
I can't trust myself
Anymore;
I've got to trust
God instead.
Can you believe
That I'm trying to believe in love,
And this is where it's led?

Can You Believe? First Draft

+Alena Grobien +Alena Grobien  I completed your challenge, but I don't think you'll like the results.

Can you believe
That I could love you
And not want to be loved back?
That I'd say I'm happy
And don't need help
And not mean a word of that?
It might sound crazy
To a healthy person,
But maybe I'm not right in the head.
Can you just try to believe me,
Even if you don't understand
A word I've said?