I Don't Understand

I'm afraid that I don't understand;

Well, I guess that's nothing new.

I never really understand,

But care? I always do.

Maybe that's the reason

That I wrote all along;

When I don't understand it,

I put it in a song.

I used to keep my thoughts here;

I stored my feelings on the page,

Even if the facts themselves

Weren't exactly straight.

Coming back here almost feels like

A visit to a foreign land;

Remembering all the things I felt

But didn't understand.

Return To 2am

It's 2am.

Again.

I've started that way before.

I guess old habits die hard.

But this time.

This time

I'm happy.

It's true

I'm drowsy;

I should be asleep.

But

I'm not tired.

Not like

 I used to be.

It's 2:01am.

I can't write.

Not like I used to.

I guess

I traded all that

To be with you.

I'm okay with that.

Just so you know.

It's 2:04am.

I spent

2 minutes

Trying to find

More to say.

But

I'm content

So

I guess my words are

Too.

I Like Spending Time With You

Dark crystal

Evening walks

Couch cuddles

Long talks

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

Making dinner

Driving 'round

Telling jokes

Hanging out

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

Mario Kart

Reading books

Breakfast food

Funny looks

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

I don't know if this counts

As another song;

Just some random thoughts of you

I wanted to jot down.

You're always trying

To sneak my picture.

I never like the way

I look.

This is how I pay you back.

I sneak your picture

By painting you in words.

But mostly

I just want to let you know

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

This Time Of Year

I don't want to write

But I'm writing anyway.

My mind has been busy

And there's things I need to say.

I've had to make some choices;

Who should leave?

Who should stay?

I guess I'm not complaining.

I'm just thinking things through.

I've lost so many people

On my way to you.

Sometimes I worry

That love never lasts.

I can't exactly prove it does

By looking at my past.

Even the leaves are dying

About this time of year.

It's just

I'd feel better

If you were here.

It's Okay To Be Human

All your thoughts

And all your feelings

All your strength

And all your weakness

Don't be afraid

To wear them

On your sleeve.

I want you to know

It's okay to be human.

All your love

And all your hate

Your victories

And your mistakes

Let it all

Be a part of you.

I want you to know

It's okay to be human.

It's okay to smile at silly things

And cry at old memories

And wonder where the heck

Your life is going.

I know that it's hard sometimes

And other people roll their eyes

And maybe most of the time

You don't know what you're doing.

But even though

We don't have wings,

Human life is a precious thing.

I just want to see you be

Brave enough to be human.

It's okay to be human.

It's Enough.

My darling's going to stay forever;

We're going to start a life together.

My love is his,

And all his love is mine.

I won't be alone again

As long as I belong to him;

Finally

My world has been set right.

You might think

I'm giving up

Too much for the sake

Of love;

You might think it's not worth

Losing my muse.

But I no longer

Need these songs;

I've found the one

That my soul loves,

And for me,

Being with him is enough.

It's enough.

The Path of Jezebel

God, I have some sins to tell,

But You already know that well.

Your eye was on me

Long before I called.

Remember when I was questioning

Everything You said to me?

Yeah, that's a dangerous path to go down.

Your mercy's in the shape

Of the life that I'm still living

After all the doubting

That You got from me.

I've lived to say

That I don't doubt You now.

God, keep me off the path of Jezebel.

God, I have some fears to tell,

But You already know them well.

Your heart ached for me

Long before I called.

Remember when I longed to lose

Everything I had from You?

Yeah, that's a dangerous path to go down.

Your mercy's in the shape

Of the life that I'm still living.

After all the doubting

That You got from me,

I've lived to say

That I don't doubt You now.

God, keep me off the path of Jezebel.

You Can't Hurt Me No More Baby (Old Friends)

When your friends start lying to you

It's time to find some new friends.

When your friends come crying to you

Wonder where they were when?

Well.

Kinda tired of being selfless.

Kinda feel like breaking away.

If you were in my shoes right now,

Honestly, what would you say?

No!

You can't hurt me no more, baby baby.

You can't hurt me like you used to do.

No!

If you wanna hit me up baby baby,

I've got some bad news for you.

I've got myself a new baby, baby,

And he doesn't hurt me like you do.

When your friends just don't respect you

Time to tell them where to go.

If your friends think they still know you

Wonder how they don't know?

Well.

Kinda tired of feeling less.

Kinda feel like going my way.

If you stood where I'm standing,

Baby, now what would you say?

No!

You can't hurt me no more, baby baby.

You can't hurt me like you used to do.

No!

If you wanna hit me up baby baby,

I've got some bad news for you.

I'm happy with my baby, baby;

He loves me like you'd never do.

No! 

I don't like how you talk about my baby, baby.

I don't like how you talk about my baby, baby.

Don't wanna hear you talk about my baby, baby,

Cuz baby, you won't be talkin' to him!
No!

You can't hurt me no more, baby baby.

You can't hurt me like you used to do.

No!

If you wanna hit me up baby baby,

I've got some bad news for you.

I've got myself a new baby, baby.

And he doesn't hurt me like you do.

No!

You can't hurt me no more, baby baby.

You can't hurt me like you used to do.

No!

If you wanna hurt me like you used to, baby,

My baby's gonna have some words for you.

Sweater

Technically,

It's still winter.

Technically,

It's blowing snow.

When I wear my favorite sweater

I don't fill the bitter cold.

Technically,

It's not my sweater.

Technically,

It belongs to you.

That's exactly why I like it;

It smells better than brand new.

Technically,

It doesn't fit me.

Technically,

It's too long.

When I'm sinking in your sweater

It almost feels like you're not gone.

Technically,

It's not forever.

Technically,

I'll see you again.

I'm not good at being patient,

But I've got your sweater until then.

I Believe It

Someone tells me that he loves me

And he's never gonna leave.

Someone tells me that he's got me,

Whatever I need.

For the first time I believe it.

For the first time I believe it.

Someone tells me that he'll be here

Even when things are bad.

Someone tells me I'm the best thing

That he's ever had.

For the first time I believe it.

He makes sure I believe it.

And he's wonderful;

I was alone so long,

Now we have something beautiful.

I don't know where he came from,

But now he's here,

Loving me,

And for the first time I believe.

Someone tells me we'll get married

And have a bunch of kids.

He said the only one touching me

From now on is him.

For the first time I believe it.

For the first time I believe it.

Someone says that I can tell him

Anything at all.

Someone promises to catch me

Whenever I fall.

For the first time I believe it.

He makes sure I believe it.

And he's wonderful;

I was alone so long,

Now we have something beautiful.

I don't know where he came from,

But now he's here,

Loving me,

And for the first time I believe.

Fall Together

I am the red leaves,

And you are the golden.

We're lovely together,

And together we've fallen.

Though the world is dying,

I'm not afraid of the weather;

Because when we fall,

We fall together.

When we fall,

We fall together.

I am the bird,

And you are the plane.

What goes up

Must come down again.

But I'm not afraid

Of clouds and wind

Or collisions and pain.

Your arms are the only

Safety net I need,

And my love billows out

Til you land on your feet.

When we fall,

We fall together.

When we fall,

We fall together.

As Long As You're With Me

I'm running out of words to say;

I never thought I would,

But this year of yesterdays

Has actually been good.

I'm starting to believe

That I won't die alone;
You've made me a promise
That I'm not on my own.
I'm not afraid to wake up;
I'm not afraid to fall asleep.
I'm not afraid to lose it all
As long as you're with me.
Like a flower in the night
You bloom in the darkest times;
I have found hope again
Now that you are mine.
And if I never find the words
That I used to sing
That would be alright with me,
If I get to wear your ring.