The Curtain

My hands are shaking

I don't know what's wrong

I'm trying to put it in a song.

Something fell on me

Like the weight of the world

And you're not here

To hold your girl.

I don't understand

What you see in me;

I don't even know

Who I'm supposed to be.

Tell me there's a point to it all

Before I let the curtain fall.

Maybe this is all a dream.

Maybe you'll give up on me.

I'm sorry I fall apart sometimes.

Please remind me that you're mine.

Silence Or Music

Silence

Or music?

Neither feels safe.

One cuts like knives

And one suffocates.

My heart beats too fast

Or my mind thinks too much

Either way I feel

Like I'm not good enough.

Where's my peace of mind

When I need it the most?

I breathe like I'm dying

Or I breathe

Like a ghost.

Something To Live For

I fall on my bed

With the weight of the day

But the sound of your voice

Makes it all drift away

Like the sound of a memory

I never thought could be mine.

And I know that I lied

For such a long time

But it's finally true

That I'm fine.

You make the world bright

Like I heard it should be

And I sleep so much better

When you're asleep next to me.

And I don't laugh at the thought

Of death anymore;

The salt and vinegar laugh

That was full of doubt

There was anything left

To live for.

Worth The Time

I've been tired lately;

Blame it on my soul.

If I fell asleep tonight

I'm not sure where I'd go.

I have obligations

I'm not getting done.

The worst part of all of this

Is that I feel alone.

You're too far to hold me.

It's alright, honestly;

A simple conversation

Is all I really need.

What I want right now

Is to feel worth the time;

Instead I end up feeling

Like I'm wasting mine.