I Don't Understand

I'm afraid that I don't understand;

Well, I guess that's nothing new.

I never really understand,

But care? I always do.

Maybe that's the reason

That I wrote all along;

When I don't understand it,

I put it in a song.

I used to keep my thoughts here;

I stored my feelings on the page,

Even if the facts themselves

Weren't exactly straight.

Coming back here almost feels like

A visit to a foreign land;

Remembering all the things I felt

But didn't understand.

Return To 2am

It's 2am.

Again.

I've started that way before.

I guess old habits die hard.

But this time.

This time

I'm happy.

It's true

I'm drowsy;

I should be asleep.

But

I'm not tired.

Not like

 I used to be.

It's 2:01am.

I can't write.

Not like I used to.

I guess

I traded all that

To be with you.

I'm okay with that.

Just so you know.

It's 2:04am.

I spent

2 minutes

Trying to find

More to say.

But

I'm content

So

I guess my words are

Too.

I Like Spending Time With You

Dark crystal

Evening walks

Couch cuddles

Long talks

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

Making dinner

Driving 'round

Telling jokes

Hanging out

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

Mario Kart

Reading books

Breakfast food

Funny looks

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

I don't know if this counts

As another song;

Just some random thoughts of you

I wanted to jot down.

You're always trying

To sneak my picture.

I never like the way

I look.

This is how I pay you back.

I sneak your picture

By painting you in words.

But mostly

I just want to let you know

I like spending time with you.

I love spending time with you.

This Time Of Year

I don't want to write

But I'm writing anyway.

My mind has been busy

And there's things I need to say.

I've had to make some choices;

Who should leave?

Who should stay?

I guess I'm not complaining.

I'm just thinking things through.

I've lost so many people

On my way to you.

Sometimes I worry

That love never lasts.

I can't exactly prove it does

By looking at my past.

Even the leaves are dying

About this time of year.

It's just

I'd feel better

If you were here.

It's Okay To Be Human

All your thoughts

And all your feelings

All your strength

And all your weakness

Don't be afraid

To wear them

On your sleeve.

I want you to know

It's okay to be human.

All your love

And all your hate

Your victories

And your mistakes

Let it all

Be a part of you.

I want you to know

It's okay to be human.

It's okay to smile at silly things

And cry at old memories

And wonder where the heck

Your life is going.

I know that it's hard sometimes

And other people roll their eyes

And maybe most of the time

You don't know what you're doing.

But even though

We don't have wings,

Human life is a precious thing.

I just want to see you be

Brave enough to be human.

It's okay to be human.

It's Enough.

My darling's going to stay forever;

We're going to start a life together.

My love is his,

And all his love is mine.

I won't be alone again

As long as I belong to him;

Finally

My world has been set right.

You might think

I'm giving up

Too much for the sake

Of love;

You might think it's not worth

Losing my muse.

But I no longer

Need these songs;

I've found the one

That my soul loves,

And for me,

Being with him is enough.

It's enough.

The Path of Jezebel

God, I have some sins to tell,

But You already know that well.

Your eye was on me

Long before I called.

Remember when I was questioning

Everything You said to me?

Yeah, that's a dangerous path to go down.

Your mercy's in the shape

Of the life that I'm still living

After all the doubting

That You got from me.

I've lived to say

That I don't doubt You now.

God, keep me off the path of Jezebel.

God, I have some fears to tell,

But You already know them well.

Your heart ached for me

Long before I called.

Remember when I longed to lose

Everything I had from You?

Yeah, that's a dangerous path to go down.

Your mercy's in the shape

Of the life that I'm still living.

After all the doubting

That You got from me,

I've lived to say

That I don't doubt You now.

God, keep me off the path of Jezebel.