Saturday, October 26, 2013

I Cry

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There's no use in crying
Over things that you can't change;
They happen so dang often,
They're far from being strange.
but oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry.
I cry because I do care,
And there's nothing I can do;
The whole dang world should be scared,
And they haven't got a clue.
Oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care.

An empty hospital bed;
God knows it's not the first.
They told me it's okay to cry.
But I don't want them to see.
But oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry.
I cry because I do care,
And there's nothing I can do.
The whole dang world should be scared,
And they haven't got a clue.
Oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care.

Plans have changed once again;
Sure, that's okay; it's okay;
We'll try another time,
Just like you've promised every other time.
But oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care,
And there's nothing I can do.
The whold dang world should be scared,
And they haven't got a clue.
Oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care.

The fact that you have to go
Means that I shouldn't miss you;
Okay, okay, I'll let you go,
But hidden misery's still misery.
But oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care,
And there's nothing I can do.
The whold dang world should be scared,
And they haven't got a clue.
Oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care.

Billboards promoting garbage;
People hiding out with drugs;
Car crashes where no one stays,
To make sure you're okay.
But oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care,
And there's nothing I can do.
The whold dang world should be scared,
And they haven't got a clue.
Oh, ah, mmm, my; I cry;
I cry because I do care.
I do care;
I cry;
I do care;
I cry;
I care;
I cry;
I care;
Cry.



Sammi and Johnny

( Okay, even *I* don't like this song! This is too ridiculously sad! Why did I even write it??? Sorry guys; I'm still trying to think up some verses to tack on the end to make it better; any ideas? :P :/   

Sammi spent each Christmas alone,
Sitting on her porch in the cold,
Pretending to be smiling,
While inside she was crying,
"Somebody come and keep me company;
Somebody, oh somebody come and sit with me!"

Johnny spent Christmas getting high,
On things that made his poor ma cry,
Pretending he was someone,
'Cause he thought he was no one;
A no one that no one could ever like.
"Somebody, oh somebody come and have a drink!"

Oh, Sammi and Johnny,
You're so alike;
If only you'd met then
Maybe things would be alright!


Poor Sammi was getting lonely,
And so she accepted a ride;
But his voice turned from honey,
To the chilly sound of ice.
Somebody come and set poor Sammi free:
"Somebody, oh somebody please come and save me!"

Johnny was found drunk on his couch,
A gun and a note by his head.
His mama kept on hoping,
But we all knew he was dead.
He hoped somebody'd bury him with tears;
Somebody's bury him beneath the willow tree.

Oh, Sammi and Johnny,
You're so alike;
If only you'd met then
Maybe things would be alright!

Farther and Farther


You said that you'd love me forever,
But then said you didn't know what love was.
You said that you weren't good for me,
But what was bad for me was your leaving.
And I'm so afraid,
Because I know you meant what you said,
And I don't know how to help you,
Because every time I try to give you wings,
You only fall
Farther and farther.

You didn't see me at the cafe,
But I saw you;
I saw things you'd never want me to see.
I remember how your eyes
Used to shine when you smiled;
I remember you used to stand
So confidently.
But now you weren't standing;
You were slouched over a coffee,
Tears sneaking from your eyes.
You were pretending to do the newspaper puzzles,
So the blonde at the next table would leave you alone.
You said that leaving would be
Better, so much better,
For me,
But I'm no better off,
And look at you!

You said that you'd love me forever,
But then you said you didn't know what love was.
You said that you weren't good for me,
But what was bad for me was your leaving.
And I'm so afraid,
Because I know you meant what you said,
And I don't know how to help you,
Because every time I try to give you wings,
You only fall
Farther and farther.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Terrible Feelings



How can I tell you how I feel?
What language shall I use?
You won't let me be until
I tell you what is wrong.
Shall I borrow the ice
Of the penguins?
Or the snow of
Polar Bears?
Shall I speak with the
Black of a crow?
Or shall I whisper with
The dark of a cave?
How shall I tell you where I hurt?
Can I cry it out with the tears
Of every storm cloud in the sky?
Can I pour it out with the
Blood of a gushing wound?
What metaphor, fable, rumor, or irony,
Will fully express my deepest
Regrets and least tiring wishes?
Speech is as weak as a bird
With a broken wing,
And as lazy as the wind on a 
Still, calm day.
Oh, how my heart is exhausted!
I'd really rather not tell you
At all.
But, as you must have an answer,
Or you will not go away,
What answer can I give you
That will be sufficient for
Your raging, ravenous appetite,
But will be safe enough
That all the "little birds"
In the world could do no
Damage with it?
You are a beast, a lion,
To put me on the spot
Like this.



Chose The Door



I thought I was the Queen of Hearts;
Now I know that I'm the Joker.
I hear our song on the radio,
And I had to pull over.
I can't take the sound of it anymore;
Not since I chose the door,
Chose the door,
Chose the door.
Not since I chose the door
Over you.

Welcome To It



Welcome to the goodbye;
Welcome to the hard times;
Welcome to the moment between going and gone.
And it's all my fault;
I take all the blame.
Yes, it's all my fault;
It never would have happened
If you'd never known my name.

Welcome to wet eyes,
Welcome to floodlights,
Welcome to crying at our old favorite song.
And it's all my fault;
I take all the blame.
Yes, it's all my fault;
It never would have happened
If you'd never known my name. 

Don't Dance

THIS IS A WORK IN PROGRESS! DON'T LET ME FORGET ABOUT IT IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE THE REST!!! :)

Don't dance with me,
Don't ask me too,
For I just might
Want to come to you.
Dancing brings us
Closer than we need...
And then you leave.

Recalling



Can you recall the goodbye?
Can you recall asking why?
Can you recall the train,
The emptiness, the pain?
I recall these things,
But let's not sing about that.
Can you recall the farewell,
The standing on the stairwell?
Recall me saying that
There was no turning back?
I recall these things,
But let's not sing about that.
I can't recall if it was you,
Or I who hurt the other,
But I recall the tears and rain
Mixing with each other.
I can't recall the reasons why
We came to parting ways,
But I recall the loneliness
Of the nest several days.
Can you recall the nightmares,
And swearing that we didn't care?
Can you recall a long fight,
Followed by a long night?
I recall these things,
But let's not sing about that.

Lord of Light

(Guess what? I changed "dies" to "died" because Christ is the One who IS Crucified. I think it's a pretty awesome edit, if I do say so myself. X) 

The Prince of Darkness
Comes disguised as an
Angel of the Light;
I can't tell them apart
Sometimes.
The Prince of Darkness
Comes telling lies
Disguised as good advice;
I can't sort them all out
Sometimes.
I'm just wasting light.
Trying to fight the
Lord of Light;
I'd like to think that
I'm always right.
I have to feel so
Alone sometimes,
Before I remember 
The Lord of Light
Is the one who is
Always right.
It's good to know
He's on my side;
Don't know why
I forget sometimes.
Don't know why He
Even tries;
I should feel so
Humble.
I don't want you to
See me cry,
But I can't hide from
The Lord of Light;
He and His
Omnipotent eye.
Always know when 
I'm in trouble.
Lord, send your
Angel to comfort me;
God who made the 
Heavens and sea,
Before I even
Start to pray,
You hear my words
And You feel my pain.
Christ who dies
Upon the Cross,
When I think I'm
At a loss,
Bring me back 
To the Son,
And show me
What You won.
Bring me back to You,
Holy One;
Let me not forget
What you have done,
That I may sing
To the Crucified One,
The everlasting song
Of Thanksgiving.

Gone



Don't talk about me when I'm gone;
There's too much about me you don't know.
don't think about me when I'm gone;
The things you remember won't be true.
You never saw the Friday when things were just;
You never saw our last goodnight.
You don't know about when forever said goodbye,
Or the pillow covered in the tears I cried.
Don't talk about me when I'm gone;
There's too much about me you don't know.
Don't think about me when I'm gone;
The things you remember won't be true.
You never heard the thoughts I had,
So don't regret what you never said.
You don't know how hurt I was,
When I convinced they were problems everyone has.
Don't talk about me when I'm gone;
There's too much about me you don't know.
Don't think about me when I'm gone;
The things you remember won't be true.
You never saw how I appreciated honesty,
Or how I chose who I accompanied;
You don't know how I had to know when you forgave,
Or how small and scared I felt when you didn't quite say.
Don't talk about me when I'm gone;
There's too much about me you don't know.
Don't think about me when I'm gone;
The things you remember won't be true.
Don't talk about me when I'm gone,
Don't think about me when I'm gone;
Don't talk about me when I'm gone,
Don't think about me when I'm gone.
When I'm gone,
When I'm gone,
When I'm gone,
Don't talk about me when I'm gone,
Don't think about me when I'm gone.
When I'm gone,
When I'm gone,
When I'm gone,
Gone,
Gone.