It's Best If I Just Leave

(This is -- was -- the better song I thought up the other day. Or what's become of it. I loved this song, and now it feels like I killed it. I'm pretty sure it's almost completely different from the original. I want to tweak it and try to perfect it, but I probably never will because I'm afraid of making it worse. XP Oooooh well. Take it as it is. Maybe someone will love it and bring it back to life. Oh, and it's not a happy song, +Alena Grobien, so don't say I didn't warn you.)

You say that you'll love me

Forever and a day.

You're always going to be here;

You'll never go away.

You're honest and you're faithful;

You'll never lie or go astray.

So you say;

Or so you say.

But people lie or make mistakes;

Our hearts and minds tend to change.

We forget the things we say,

And break the promises we made.

We fall down or lose our way,

And it's so hard to trust anyone these days;

Maybe it's best if I just leave.

You love every word I say,

And the silence when I'm thinking.

You love the way I tilt my head

When I'm listening to you.

You love my nose, and my eyes,

And the way I bite my lip.

So you say;

Or so you say.

But people lie or make mistakes;

Our hearts and minds tend to change.

We forget the things we say,

And break the promises we made.

We fall down or lose our way,

And it's so hard to trust anyone these days;

Maybe it's best if I just leave.

You love pretending to fall asleep

Just to catch me watching you breathe.

You love walking in the cold,

So you can offer me your coat.

You love grabbing things I can't reach;

How I stand on tip toes to kiss your cheek.

So you say;

Or so you say.

But people lie or make mistakes;

Our hearts and minds tend to change.

We forget the things we say,

And break the promises we made.

We fall down or lose our way,

And it's so hard to trust anyone these days;

Maybe it's best if I just leave.

I love the way you hold my hand,

Like you're always ready to protect me.

I love the way you laugh,

Or purse your lips when you don't agree.

I love the way you read out loud,

Or wash the dishes when I'm too depressed to breathe.

I love you;

I love you in every way.

But people lie or make mistakes;

Our hearts and minds tend to change.

We forget the things we say,

And break the promises we made.

We fall down or lose our way,

And it's so hard to trust anyone these days;

Maybe it's best if I just leave.

It's so hard to see the tears in your eyes

As you watch me walk away,

And you're holding an umbrella,

So I know it's not the rain.

I hold out your coat,

But you won't take it from me,

Even though it's yours,

And you look like you're freezing.

You don't speak, or look at your feet,

But most of all, you don't leave.

Why am I doing what I'm doing,

When it feels like a mistake?

Because people lie and go away,

And I'm so afraid one of us will change;

That we'll forget what we said,

And break the promises we made.

I've fallen down; I've lost my way,

And I don't trust myself to keep you safe.

Maybe it's best if I just leave;

I can't hurt you if I leave.

It's best if I just leave;

It's best for you if I just leave.

But you'll always be a part of me.