Do You Feel The Same?

If I stay because I love you,

Then who is loving me?

If I stay because I need you,

Why did you never leave?

I've got to hold myself up,

So you can take your heart away.

I knew it was dumb to want you,

But I wanted anyway.

If I tell you that I'm happy,

Are you lying too?

And if I have to see you,

What am I gonna do?

Tell me, was it easy?

Did you feel any pain?

Then suddenly it's my move,

But I don't know what to say.

It's gotten complicated

To get out of this mess;

The ladder is just long enough

To get halfway there, at best.

Would it have been better

If I'd never known your name?

I'm tempted to think so;

Do you feel the same?

My bedroom is too quiet;

My thoughts are all of you.

I'm looking for distraction;

I need something to do.

I think that it's ironic;

You never would approve.

But we're not talking anymore,

So I have nothing left to lose.

I survived before I met you;

I'll survive now that you're gone.

If there are five stages of grieving,

Which stage am I on?

I bounce around the phases;

Acceptance takes too long.

Sometimes I think I've got it,

But I turn out to be wrong.

I'm sorry I'm depressing,

And I let people down,

But I don't resent your happiness;

Please don't hate me for my frown.

Would it have been better

If you'd never known my name?

I've always been afraid of that;

Do you feel the same?