Worthless

I recognize this pain.

I've been here before.

I didn't think that I

Would feel worthless anymore.

Something feels different.

Something that I can't ignore.

I didn't think that I

Would feel worthless anymore.

There's a pressure in my heart

Like it's about to break.

I take a little more

When I've had all I can take.

I can't see you unhappy,

I don't make you smile like before.

I didn't think that I

Would feel worthless anymore. 

You Are My Sunshine

 You are my sunshine

When the sky is full of clouds.

You are my blue skies

When the rain is pouring down.

I wish that I had known

Back then what I'd have now.

When the storm cleared away,

There was you.

There was you.

I couldn't see the silver

When all the clouds were gray.

I couldn't see the summer

When the leaves had blown away.

I couldn't see a reason

To keep living that way,

But when the storm cleared away,

There was you.

There was you.

You're every shining star

At the end of the day.

You are my warm shelter

When I am afraid.

You hold the avalanche

Of fears at bay.

When the storm cleared away,

There was you.

There was you.

When the storm cleared away,

There was you.

Insecurities

 Every game you play,

Every movie that we see,

I wonder if you think those girls

Are prettier than me.

Who wouldn't think those girls

Are prettier than me?

The number on the scale

Isn't one I'd like to be.

The face in the mirror

Isn't one I like to see. 

I wonder if you think those girls

Are prettier than me.

Who wouldn't think those girls

Are prettier than me?

We spent time together;

Now we never have time free.

There used to be two of us

Then two turned into three. 

Do you think that I'm as pretty

As I used to be?

I know I'm not as pretty

As the girls on our tv.

Do you think all those girls

Are prettier than me?

Who wouldn't think those girls

Are prettier than me? 

I've Changed

 I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I remember running scared,

Feeling wholly unprepared,

Grasping at any love that came along.

I remember telling lies;

I thought I had to to get by,

Now I know that I was wrong.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I was fighting my own mind;

Felt like I'd been left behind.

There was no one waiting up for me.

We went down our different roads;

Didn't know where mine would go,

But often thought about destiny.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I often wished for peace,

And I finally found it.

I often wished for love,

And I finally found it.

I often fought the faith,

But couldn't live without it.

I often wished for peace,

And I finally found it.

I often wished for love,

And I finally found it.

I often longed for home,

And I finally found it.

I found it,

I found it...

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I've changed, and you might not like it,

But I do.

I do.

I do. 

Just Another

Am I just another pill in your prescription?

Just an empty seat that you're filling?

Just another box on your to-do list?

Just another point that you're proving? 

Am I just another leaf falling?

Just another cat you're calling?

Am I a temporary obsession?

Am I just a sin in your confession?

Am I just a turn that you're taking?

Just another heart you're breaking?

Just another night you're spending?

Just another way to blend in?
Just a number on a scoresheet?

Just another wife to beat?

Am I just part of a tale

That's been told before,

Or when you see me, when you hold me,

Am I something more?

Home Three Years Ago

It was just three years ago

I didn't want to go home

But I didn't know

Where else there was to go.

I wanted to drive

To a world full of strangers.

I wanted to drive

To a world full of danger.

To be honest,

I wanted to drive

Straight of the road.

It was just three years ago

Nowhere really felt like home,

But it was far too late

To find someplace else to go.

It was just three years ago

People felt like spiders

Words tasted like smoke

And my mind

Was a dangerous place to go.

Now here I stand,

Safe at last,

No more a slave

To my past,

My home is on my arm

And on my lips.

Now here I stand,

I'm not afraid;

At night I have someplace to go

At last.

The Curtain

My hands are shaking

I don't know what's wrong

I'm trying to put it in a song.

Something fell on me

Like the weight of the world

And you're not here

To hold your girl.

I don't understand

What you see in me;

I don't even know

Who I'm supposed to be.

Tell me there's a point to it all

Before I let the curtain fall.

Maybe this is all a dream.

Maybe you'll give up on me.

I'm sorry I fall apart sometimes.

Please remind me that you're mine.

Silence Or Music

Silence

Or music?

Neither feels safe.

One cuts like knives

And one suffocates.

My heart beats too fast

Or my mind thinks too much

Either way I feel

Like I'm not good enough.

Where's my peace of mind

When I need it the most?

I breathe like I'm dying

Or I breathe

Like a ghost.

Something To Live For

I fall on my bed

With the weight of the day

But the sound of your voice

Makes it all drift away

Like the sound of a memory

I never thought could be mine.

And I know that I lied

For such a long time

But it's finally true

That I'm fine.

You make the world bright

Like I heard it should be

And I sleep so much better

When you're asleep next to me.

And I don't laugh at the thought

Of death anymore;

The salt and vinegar laugh

That was full of doubt

There was anything left

To live for.

Worth The Time

I've been tired lately;

Blame it on my soul.

If I fell asleep tonight

I'm not sure where I'd go.

I have obligations

I'm not getting done.

The worst part of all of this

Is that I feel alone.

You're too far to hold me.

It's alright, honestly;

A simple conversation

Is all I really need.

What I want right now

Is to feel worth the time;

Instead I end up feeling

Like I'm wasting mine.