Saturday, October 12, 2024

The Heaviest Burden

 My body shakes from the abuse it's carried; 
Secret sins church leaders buried. 
Over ten years ago; why does it matter? 
Because in that moment my world was shattered.
The burden of forgiveness on victims' shoulders; 
What consequence for a man much older?
Guards at the door, but the devil's inside
The very shelter where his victims hide. 
Does God hear my prayers when His people don't? 
When I leave my church because abusers won't? 
Maybe, I'm told, this will make you stronger;
Maybe you can protect your daughter. 
I've tried so hard to get back on my feet,
But where I least expected, the cycle repeats. 
Abusers sleep easy while victims can't rest; 
God, keep us safe in this life like you will in the next.

Every Day Little Joys

 Feels like there's secret language
That's spoken just by us
Written in things that once scared me
Like I Love Yous and a hug.
You scaled all the walls
That I was putting up
When I thought the only real feelings 
Were the hurtful, heavy ones;
You saw more than just a nice girl
Or someone who annoyed,
And now even on our worst days
There are 
Every Day
Little Joys.
I make you feel important,
You make me feel like I'm enough,
Like I'm not just a burden,
Like I never was.
My heart used to be so fragile
You had to handle it with gloves;
You made me realize I'm stronger
Than I thought I was.
All the things I used to bottle up
Because I thought they'd just annoy
Are now just a few
Of our 
Every Day 
Little Joys.